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Patience

Sometimes it’s the small victories. For sure. For me. I find it hardest to be completely calm, especially when I’m frustrated or annoyed.

I always relate myself to this one Post Secret post card. I think of it often. It’s a picture of a dog, jaws nearly unhinged revealing its teeth, jumping out of the water, which dramatically splashes all around its face. The caption is something like:

I’m envious of those who can hide how they feel.

It’s one of those things I’ve wished on stars for… since I was old enough to realize that playing the “cool” routine would keep people off my back. Still, to this day, I can’t get away with much. Whether it’s the tone of my voice or the wrinkling of my eyebrow, my state is hardly opaque.

Now, don’t get me wrong. It makes me honest, and I’ve grown to be a bit more in-control than say… my 6th grade self. I’ve also learned to embrace it most often. Both the excitement and the stormy me.

But today! I realized how much more patient I’ve been. Especially over the last few months, when shit has really hit the fan. I know it’s a small step, a small victory, but I’m proud of it. Even just in this moment.

Less impulsive. Less reactive. More careful.

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